Joseph,

I needed this.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 19:01:35 GMT

I don't agree with the entire message, but the gist of it is applicable.

An interview I had...

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 03:05:02 GMT

How old were you the last time you trick-or-treated?
5... I matured early.

If you were in a Band, what would you name it?
Curious George and the Bigots... (we would play Bluegrass music).

If I were a guest on "Jerry Springer," the topic would be...
"I'm Pregnant but I Still Want to Strip!"

How many times is it acceptable to wear a pair of pants before washing them?
3? This is such a "Seinfeld"/"Curb Your Enthusiasm" question.

If I were pregnant, I'd probably crave...
an abortion.

I've always wanted...
to invite a hobo to lunch.

If you had your own army of 1000 identical five year olds, what would you have them do?
Reenact the short film "The Gift" starring Karen Black. So funny. :)

I'm allergic to...
Grass, Bees, Roaches, Pollen, Mites (bed bugs), Wheat, Oats, Barley, Yeast, Gluten, Eggs, Soy, Beef, Milk, Cheese, Ice Cream, Butter/Margarine, Yogurt, all Fish and Seafood, Cottonseed Oil, and Alcohol/Liquor. I choose not to eat foods made with hydrogenated or enriched products and corn syrup because they're ridiculously unhealthy. I also choose not to eat pork. so... yeah

I'd be mortified if someone caught me...
I have no shame, so...

I'd describe my sense of humor as...
Unpredictable.

My first word was probably...
"Anthropomorphism" True story.

Ever broken a bone?
'Til this day, I still don't know how I broke the bone in my right index finger.

Quick! Make up a new pizza topping!
Swear to God, the first thing that came to my mind was "green."

What did you have for lunch yesterday?
Water and Amish, salted, mixed nuts. 22 more pounds to go, then I can walk in Milan!

I wish I had been born back in...
the 20's... But, I would have to be rich and... not have brown skin.

I'd like to smack...
just about everyone.

When you get stressed, what are you most likely to throw out the window?
Defenestration is a bit rash, don't you think?

The older I get, the more I...
yearn for a 'simple kind of life.'

I collect...
pennies.

What do you think you'll name your kids?
I'm not a fan of goats.

If you saw wet cement, what word would you write in it?
"Erosion"

People think that I'm...
dead.

What makes you smile?
Everything.

What would your Patronus be?
...huh? Are you referring to the social customs of Ancient Rome?

Do you play any instruments?
On occasion, the clarinet.

How many licks does it take to get to the center of a marble?
Depends on whose licking it... seriously.

I usually go to bed around...
10pm... seriously.

What did your mom write on your lunch bag?
My nickname.

In retrospect, do you wish you had studied harder or had more fun?
I don't contemplate the past, so...

Truth or Dare?
... Depends on my mood

I believe in...
... you. Even if you don't trust or know yourself.

On a scale from 1 to crazy, I'm about a:
I'm going to let someone else take this one.

How many hours of sleep do you need?
9 to be at 100%, 5 to be functional.

Boys go to Jupiter to get more...
hydrogen?

I knew I was an adult when...
I was age eight.

In 10 years, I'll be...
42... I think. Sometimes I forget my age because I don't celebrate/remember my birthdate.

God is...
... hmm. I'm going to let someone else take this one, too.

Love or lust?
Both are fatiguing states of mind, so...

I wish I had never seen...
that guy's penis... I mean, seriously.

Quick! Make up a first name:
"Xi" (If I had a son, that would be his name. Well, either that or "Remy." A daughter: "Carmen.")

Nothing, I repeat, NOTHING, is getting between me and my...
food, shower time, and rest periods.

What was your first live concert?
I've never been to a concert, live or previously recorded.

My hourly rate is...
I don't think ya'll could afford me.

Do you recycle?
No.

What's your favorite brand?
I try to stay away from brands.

When I want to be alone, I...
be alone.

What's your ideal climate?
70 Fahrenheit, bright sun, low humidity, blue skies with scattered clouds, an almost unnoticeable breeze... *le sigh* (so far it's only happened thrice)

If I woke up as the opposite sex, I'd...
start screaming, "Where's my penis?"

Do you like your peanut butter crunchy or smooth?
Depends on my mood.

What advice would you give your younger self?
Run away.

Pepsi or Coke?
Water.

When was the last time you threw up?
WOW! It's been a while.

What snack food can you scarf down a whole bag in one sitting?
I can scarf down any amount of food in one sitting. Don't be fooled by my size.

Which of the following describe you? Teenage? Mutant? Ninja? Turtle?
Mutant?

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?
I think the more appropriate question would be: What wouldn't I do?

Five star hotel or a tent in the woods?
Both, please.

Where is Waldo?
Dude, I found him like a decade ago.

Glasses or contacts?
Both.

Would you rather have a fast forward or instant replay button for your life?
Instant replay! Oh, the hilarity.

When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Again, with the goats! But seriously, an architect.

Paper, plastic, or re-usable?
Re-usable

Have you ever cheated on someone?
Nope, and never will.

What's the fastest you've ever driven?
154.49 kph

What's the first frivolous thing you'll buy when you're rich and famous?
I don't want to be either; and I'm cheap, so... this question isn't really working for me.

Why are there so many zombies on Facebook?
When did zombies discover the internet?

What's your favorite restaurant?
I don't have one.

Which of your Facebook friends have you made out with?
Ew. Oh, wait... OK, yeah back to my original answer. Ew.

I'm looking forward to...
eating, showering, and sleeping.

George W. Bush is...
the former President of the United States.

If I had a DeLorean, I'd...
OMG! LOL! A DeLorean DMC-12! *Dies 5 times* Really!?! (^_^) ... I would sell it.

If there were an extra hour in the day, I'd use it to...
eat, sleep or shower.

Who's a bigger pushover? Mom or Dad?
Father.

Shoes or sneakers?
Aren't sneakers, shoes?

Hey, How much?

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 06:27:31 GMT

On my way home from work yesterday, I was mistaken for a prostitute.

:(

This is the second time this has happened. :-/

Blast from the past...

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 17:24:47 GMT

I swear, I still use LJ...

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 01:16:21 GMT

So, my uncle just got married.
It was a traditional Texas wedding.

The only thing unconventional, besides the mentalities of the bride and groom, was my mother!

My mother (re: conservative, reserved, introvert) presented herself as a new woman.

She wore a tastefully revealing black dress at the wedding (shock #1), drank champagne (shock #2, this was a big one, considering how she protested against alcohol consumption in the past), publicly danced (shock #3, she hasn't done that since her clubbing days), and revealed that she's taking yoga, dancing, and voice lessons.

I love that my mom is finally spreading her wings. ^_^

Comfortably Dumb...

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 20:55:17 GMT

Are our popular entertainers (mainly, singers and "singers") stupid?

Does the music industry actively seek young, uneducated, and unaware talent (and "talent") because they believe they are incapable of deciphering the logistics of the industry?

Currently, I'm thinking of a few entertainers who haven't completed secondary school, but are insanely popular.

Shouldn't there be a minimum requirement other than (1) must be "appealing" (2) must have a marginal amount of "talent?"

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 20:24:15 GMT

I want to open a Health Clinic in Washington, D.C. to ensure that quality medical care is available to all those in medical need but without the means to pay.

It will be my way to improve the health of medically under-served and uninsured city residents by providing high quality and free primary medical and dental care.

After some years, I would like to open a hospital component (because the clinic would provide all services except surgery). The hospital would operate just like the clinic.

After the clinic and hospital, I want to begin attacking inequities in education.
So... I'll probably have to re-enroll in school and after graduation, establish a school.

Hopefully, these institutions can serve as beacons and standards, proving that the bullshit enveloping these entities is superfluous and elective.

No more counseling aspirations for me!

Milk Does a Body Good

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 20:02:54 GMT

In 2006, I was toppled over by an avalanche of introspective information that fostered my development.
Since then, I have seemingly climbed out of an overwhelming amount of conscious inner thoughts, desires, and sensations, and am now waiting for the next slide (hopefully, a lahar-esque decent, so it can cover some insecurities).
I feel like I'm not growing.
I'm maintaining.

Should I change the type of knowledge entering my brain?
Switch from "skim" to "whole milk?"

Random Fact/Reminder

Thu, 21 May 2009 22:41:45 GMT

Tom Brady and Gisele Bündchen both have genital herpes.
Please practice safe sex. :)

Sat, 16 May 2009 03:24:47 GMT

The last time I went to the cinema was in... 2007.
I want to see this film next:

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 00:27:49 GMT

Has anyone noticed that when "soul food" is prepared it's always comprised of the same dishes?
Yet, people ceaselessly get excited when a "soul food" meal is prepared.(?)

I don't get it.

1 or 2? ...Is 3 still in the mix?

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 04:23:56 GMT

I believe two types of relationships exist: Passionate and "Companionate"

I've noticed that these Passionate relationships (1) thrive on this phenomenon of "arousal" (which is an aggregate of feeling needed, infatuation, and a lack of intimacy), (2) are perceived as uncontrollable, (3)are sudden in onset, and brief in duration, (4) are ultimately influenced by one's cultural belief in love.

On the other hand, Companionate relationships (1) thrive on mutual trust, tolerance, and caring, (2) are controllable, (3) are slow in development, (4) are ultimately encompassed by mutuality of dependence and reciprocation of love.

From my observations, I have concluded that, ironically, successful relationships may lead to less passion.
Most people believe that physiological arousal in the presence of others is a key aspect of passionate love. The truth is that early in a relationship, a variety of emotions contribute to the perception of passion. Thus, uncertainties about the ultimate prospects for the relationship, anxiety over the spectre of rejection, joy over the reassurances of the other all contribute to the romantic experience.
Reduction of anxieties and uncertainties, senses of security and trust ultimately undermine passion. Successful partners become "meshed." They learn to accommodate to each other so that interaction sequences run off smoothly and serve the needs of both. Emotions are likely to fade in intensity as each partner successfully adapts to the other.
Ultimately, a couple may lose sight of the various ways they rely on the relationship to satisfy their needs, taking each other more and more for granted. (One is less emotionally responsive to the benefits provided by the other as they become expected.) And, the degree to which the relationship is interdependent only becomes apparent by episodes of conflict or separation.

So, given the choice... I think I'll always prefer companionate relationships. "3," which would be some sort of conglomerate of the two (beginning as a passionate model then transitioning to a companionate model) seems like a waste of time. :-/

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 15:28:55 GMT

Today is the day my life will change.

Changing the game plan...

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 01:16:15 GMT

I'm going to start judging my success by the degree that I'm enjoying peace, health, and love in my life.

Hopefully, this will facilitate some much needed drive. : /

I'm in one of my moods... lol

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 02:56:57 GMT

Going back home...

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 15:56:05 GMT

I had dreamt I was driving on a highway in my bed. Behind me, my mother and younger sister sat parked in their own beds and watched me as I traveled. I kept going forward, ignoring fleeting thoughts of returning to the guard rail where they were parked.
Eventually, I drove up a hill and lost a bit of momentum. I pulled over to check my map. I was only a few feet away from a divergence on a downhill slope. To my left was a crazy hitchhiker selling spicy food. The hitchhiker walked over to me, gave me a glance, then walked back to his post.
I looked down the hill that which I had ascended, thinking "I should return."
I then looked at the map, noticing the close proximity of my exit.

Then I awoke. : /

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 19:05:16 GMT

I watch the first season of Ally McBeal in order to get over my own self-absorbed insecurities and vulnerabilities.

A developing story...

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 21:17:40 GMT

- So...
I took some Nyquil three hours ago.
Two cups fulls.
I didn't read the label.
I thought I fell asleep ten minutes later, but just realized I didn't because I can remember hearing everything that went on during the following hour.
Now... my motor skills are shot.

Is Nyquil supposed to be able to do this to people? I would write a letter to the FDA and Proctor and Gamble, but seeing that it has taken me this long to write this entry...

I think I overdosed. :(

- Barbara Walters reminds me of my mother.

- My impartiality makes me feel guilty. No more! I'm going to start politely calling people on their shit.

-Awareness is key. Socioeconomic, Race, Differences all around. Awareness.

-Check out http://xkcd.com/
I think some of you may like it. Especially gregstevenstx

OK, now I'm rambling. I feel really tired.

I've been saying this for a while...

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 23:39:38 GMT

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 19:30:59 GMT

I should have been a Psychology and Government double major with Public Policy and Education Minor... taking selected courses in History, Sociology, and Engineering Science. :(

EDIT: Fuck it! Like wukemon, I'm getting what I want. :)

Damn you, inevitable progression!!!

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 20:49:24 GMT

I bought the following mp3 player yesterday:

I'm not going to use it until my CD player combusts.

*sulk*

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 01:29:14 GMT

I have just made the decision to conspicuously attenuate my relationship with my family.

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 14:51:05 GMT

I took a taxi to get to the airport. I was in for a two hour drive, so I was expecting to converse with the driver. Sure enough, an older gentleman picked me up and decided to initiate the conversation with sports talk.
We chatted about the Patriots (and their fans), Ravens, Redskins, Steelers (and the city of Pittsburgh), and Colts. During the conversation, I was my normal neutral self. I didn't favor nor disfavor a team, player (I don't really keep track of them anyway), or coach. As the end of the first part of our conversation drew near, I began to notice my knowledge fading. I was quickly growing tired of the conversation. Sports talk is not boring, but it is tenuous. Further more, it is sometimes annoyingly used as a feeble attempt to establish a "bond" between strangers. But, I digress...
He soon changed the subject to race and politics. (lol)
He queried, "Hey, let me ask you something. Why is it that black people who claim to be Christian vote for politicians who are against God's values? Why do they continuously vote Democrat?"
Now... *laughs*
I rolled my eyes for a brief second for obvious reasons, but I answered the question to the best of my abilities. My answer was detailed, yet equally general. I'm still not sure if I formulated my answer this way because of deep uncertainty, tolerance attributable to a lack of involvement, or just my way of seeming neutral (avoiding attacking/supporting Black's actions).
Driver then segued the conversation into Christian morality and beliefs. During this leg of the conversation I allowed him to talk more. Throughout the entire conversation, I didn't feel the urge to question or test his ideas. And when he wondered about mine, I immediately resorted to both passive and aggressive neutrality. Which left him thinking I believed in conservative Christian beliefs.
He desired to end the conversation with a prayer as we arrived at the airport. I didn't mind, so I allowed him to pray; I even closed my eyes.

Now I'm concerned. I think my neutrality allows people to see me in a light in which they are comfortable. As a result, I am viewed differently by everyone.

Nip/Tuck

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 11:04:14 GMT

Is there a reality show about pre-op transsexuals who seek funds for medical operations... 'cause if not, last night I dreamt about the pilot episode.

Joseph gets a spanking...

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:53:02 GMT

I am deeply disturbed by my reaction to chastisement.

I'm immediately haunted by the circumstance; aimlessly thinking about how/why I screwed up, the effect of the chastisers passive-aggressive language, and the morality of it all.

Standing in the corner, thinking about what I did.

That's what I regress to, and I don't like being there.
Chastisement is designed to invoke guilt.

To overcome guilt...

I guess... I'll just accept that it's an emotion. : /
I need a dose of "Getoverit!"